I’m an idealist. I have serious standards and principles. All thru my
horrific upbringing I stayed loyal to my sacred soul and lofty
idealism. No matter how much I suffered, I ferociously held onto
them.
The rest of you didn’t. I
watched the final bits of idealism die out from all of you by age 15
or 16.
Now you have nothing left. You
people gave out and gave up long ago. There’s little left of your
humanity either.
You folks are basically just
empty shells. A poor simulation of what you once were. You’re all
pretty much zeros -- dead men walking.
But your zombie philosophy,
lifestyle, and persona are not for me.
* * *
I don’t like you guys very
much -- obviously. And I certainly don’t respect you. Still, I
sometimes dutifully study you. I view you all distastefully and from
a distance. I regard you folks as the space aliens and bizarre
mutants that you evidently are.
Of course, I’m not really
all that interested. You both repel and bore me.
And bear in mind: I absolutely
hate your fucking guts. I may reluctantly observe and analyze you
all, from time to time. But I still want you devils to suffer
hideously and die pathetically. You certainly deserve this.
Still, for all your remarkable
evil and amazing hostility to myself, I’m still a part-time
anthropologist. I’m still somewhat curious as to who -- or at least
what -- you ridiculous, wretched, ghastly, pseudo-people really are.
You seem so similar to me
physically. Maybe not mentally, psychologically, or spiritually. But
at least on the surface, you appear to be moderately like me.
Hence I sometimes contemplate,
and speculate upon, the nature of you deviants and clowns. Call it a
morbid fascination.
You folks do seem more worthy
of examination than gorillas, chimpanzees, and bonobos. And even more
so, perhaps, than generally noble cats and dogs. Thus I frequently
interact with “my fellow man” (sic).
* * *
In the Game of Life, I
sometimes like to talk to men. I sometimes like to have sex with
women. But when I talk to men, I’m painfully aware of what animals
and monsters you all are. And when I have sex with women, I’m
painfully aware of how ultimately debasing it is to engage in such de
facto perversion and bestiality. You people are all low, awful,
repellent demons and insects.
And I’m aware of how you
folks pretty much never stop verbally and physically attacking me.
You continuously assault me with your foolish and malicious ways.
With your irrational, illiberal philosophy. With your criminal, tyrannical, welfare statist government. With your general betrayal. And, of
course, with all your evasions and lies.
But so it goes. Such is my
life on earth. You zombies and mutants may have no idealism, but you
rule.
When I gaze upon you all, you don’t even seem
real or alive to me. Definitely you aren’t human. Clearly you
aren’t normal, decent, or good.
Basically you people are just
traitors to yourself, humanity, and me. Just hideous vermin fit only
for extermination.